The beginning

Well, here it is: The official first posting on Caitlin's blog. This seems like a big beginning, but really the journey begins when we are born and continues until we die.

As Edward and I are in the midst of our wedding plans everyone makes a big deal out of this one day, when really the wedding day is just a day to celebrate the rest of life and a point of transition in two familie's lives. In the grand scheme of things, does it matter what the cake looked like or what color the flowers are? Isn't it more important that two people dream together, and begin to think and plan as one?

Recently I had to do one of the hardest things I have had to do in a long time. I had to leave Eugene for a while. I had the perfect day for my last day, though. I spent the morning hiking and spending time with two of my favorite people: God and Jamie. It was so good to dig a little deeper into the word of God. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon with friends I love and wanted to say good-bye to. In the evening I spent time with friends so close they are family. This time was so special I am not sure I can put words to it. As I went to leave I felt like I was leaving a little portion of my heart in Eugene. I know I will miss so many people and things from my life there. It is so hard to leave; harder than I really can express. Yet I know the leaving is the beginning. God is leading me to begin a new season in my life and I am just grateful that God cares enough about me to continue to guide me through.

The biggest change in my new season of life is beginning a marriage. I feel like most people do not go into a marriage thinking about or knowing there will be many challenges ahead. We are often blinded by love and fail to look forward to the things that may come. Don’t get me wrong I love Eddie very much it is just that I am going into the next phase of my life knowing there will be challenges. But, I want to do it anyway. With God, I know that I will make it through life even with the hardships, the trials and the challenges. I am looking forward to God growing me and changing me as I enter into marriage and a new time in my life. I know God will see Edward and I through, and I am excited to see what He has in store for us in the future.

This all may be a little deep for the first post of my blog, but I think it is truly my heart and is what should be shared with those who care about me and call me their friend. Sometimes there is more to me than simple sarcasm and teasing. J